In 6th grade, my childhood sorta fell apart: I was severely bullied (more by the teachers, I felt), and my mom got so addicted to computer duster that she collapsed for hours at a time. I was arrested, put in the hospital, etc. Funny thing to note: mom learned about duster abuse through Intervention, a show that's designed to show you how much it fucks up your life. Haven't spoken to her since dad got custody.
A few years after that, I found the only girl I ever loved and I lost her in 2 weeks. My own fault too, for being autistic as soykaf and accidentally creeping her out. Whoops.
Since then I've always isolated myself as much as possible, to the point where I nearly failed high school despite being the kid that never had to study to have the highest scores. Right now I'm 18, graduated early last year at 16, and for the past nearly 2 years I've tried my hardest to be a shut-in. There's a lot going on now that I'm simply not prepared for, and that's mostly because I haven't changed since that low point, besides being less aggressive and more avoidant, and I'm probably more comfortable with dying now. In a way I'm like the inverse of you, for better or worse.>>761
In all fairness, everyone's personality changes in elementary school. Life's more enjoyable when you wing it, I'll agree with you on that!>>762
Have you considered remote work so you can at least travel while you do it?>>765
The only good thing about me is the fact that I don't compromise on myself for the sake of people I don't like. I'm glad you learned to do that too. I'm also glad that you aren't depressed anymore.>>766>>767
Far too few people realize that freedom is a very personal thing, and even fewer work to increase theirs on their own terms. It's one of the worst things about society, that lack of individualism or personal responsibility.>>772
Fuck dude, that's intense.